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What A Guy Wants What a guy Needs! followed by Ignorant A$$ comments!

Its been awhile!! Xanga Im back on my Canga blog though I will be up here more frequiently trust that a lot has happend well I took off from college for some me time and My mother and father are still good my brother is well and I got a job.. OBama is President (black History yEs we Can and Yes we did I PRAY we will!! HIPHOP is on a incubator waiting to be pulled!! and I have learned soo much about people and guys especially!!

Thanks for listening!

Soo Basically I really dont care what a guy wants or what he needs I am soooo over guys its rdiculous now I AM NO LESBIAN! NOT AT ALL!! Im not against any lesbians or gays at all just not my thing.. I loove boys I am soo attracted and boy crazy tis crazy I just dont understand how things are incredible one minuteand comepletely shitty the next?? Is love bipolar? I think its tripolar up down, middle,?? I get soo flippin confused I really wish I knew  why soo many people get into relationships. Relationships are like RollerCoasters SERIOUSLY!! (damn that song was hot) I really wish that guys came with manual instructions the sexy fly ones are all about looks and about the booty tits hair and ass!! Its sickening how guys act like you have to be perfect VIDEO LATINA CHIC WITH an ass blown up like a hot air balloon just washed hair and sun glasses in a bikini ( and I bet she cant even spell lecture or Interpretive)

I get told that I look good and guys talk to me only because of my looks and most guys look for the girl if they get pregnant the baby is going to come out looking good to represent them and thats mostly a girl with long hair like myself but lets say I wasnt Dominican or a woman of color or white I was Albino!! They would turn their nose up at me as if I was Fish fresh on ice on a 105' degree day.. I get guys tell me Yeah mami speak that Guala Guala shit to me!! (EARTH TO IGNORANT ASSWHOLE WHO THINKS OR SPEAKS LIKE THIS) Thats not what it is called its Spanish! embreded in from our Ancestors Who raped our indigneous ancestors our Afrikan ancestors (GASP!! HUH!) ( DARE SOMEONE ADMIT THEY HAVE AFRIKAN IN THEIR SANGRIA) (SANGRIA=BLOOD) Yea I said it.. Its funny because these young boys today see these music videos and these movies and these celebrities and hear what I hear as a woman of color. (IGNORANT REMARKS LIKE THIS ONE) "Damn mami lookin good I love ya complexion its just right but eh baby girl why ya moma look black though?? VAYA!! (WOW) what a question to ask "She got some good hair though" (UGH BOILING STEAM!!! LIKE OLD LOONEY TUNE CARTOONS) "??? What do yo mean by that statement? Why is it that women of color especially black women have been trying to satisfy thae black man for so long?? (Its always been about what Mister Wants!) QUOTE from Film THe Color Purple  la pelicula de Color morrado! "Ya brother dont look Mexican" MEXICAN?? AZTEC INCA BLOOD! Dominicans AFRIKAN INDIGINOUS SPANIARD EUROPEAN JUST LIkE 90% of Carribean from Barbados  Jamaica St kitts VI to Argentina!! all over!! Get over it "How come ya skin lighter than ya mommas? WELL!! that was it final straw (Claim you are a buisness majo rat GMU and that dumb puh lease!! )

"You look Puertorican and Black to me shawty real talk" (SMACK ACROSS THOSE ASHY ASS LIPS! is what I wanted to do but I didnt I mean he could have stolen his own words and created somethnig so dumb to say...."Man you hav my baby they gone be REAL REAL cute.. BINGO! (WE GOT SOMETHING) You only with me because of my race and features?? Something I cannot control nor correct how I was made and that my family is mixed up?? HAIR HAIR HAIR HAIR!! I wish BROTHAS WOULD GET OVER IT! I had a guy name Joe tell me at DTLR I got hired because I look good and he loves my hair hmm does he want to be with me or be me?? HMM yall do the math Im tired of ignorance its bliss!! Im sickand tired of guys not trynna get to know me for who I am but what I look like?? GET OVER YA SELF GOODBYE!! SO PLUSH! what a song!

I wish all ignorant guys were able to get tazored!

Im out~~~~~~

Things are CRAAZY!

I miss my ex boyfriend soo much its soo hard to get over him I dont know what to do. I keep thinking abouth im and even though he might hav moved on I dont think I have on top of that things arent' going soo good with College so I feel at lost for words and at lsot with myself hopfully something will be okay!

I wish that I can take a Genie kidnapp him and make all the wished or shall I say problems go away! You know like on those movies like Bee Witch twitches her nose and everything is cool and just right why in life soo manyt problems and I cant solve IT!! I feel physically sick to my stomach with a loss of love and a fear of failure hopefully I will be okay until next time PRAY HARD FOR ME WHOEVER Reads this HARD ROCK AND HOT PLACE

FEAR OF FAILURE AND LACK OF LOVE= A Stressful headache

later! 

Currently Watching John Tucker Must Die By Jesse Metcalfe, Brittany Snow, Ashanti (II), Sophia Bush, Arielle Kebbel see related

Yeah Va Beach is poppin!

Iihgt so it good to be home! finally a bitch can lay out nad chil but I got to pay the bank get a new cell phone fix my car door and still oull some cash for my room and board on this semester! SHIT IS HECTIC!!! I don't know whats going on My boo and I re okay he got a new job and all so he be actin a little shiesty and shit. Meric and I still talk or what not. My mother is on a struggle with work my pops is good though he seem to hae so much faith in God and all. I mean I know there is a god out there and I do pray I only wish that he heard me and all these worries and troubles of mine would go away. Virginia Beach its good to be home and all radio stations are still poppin exept they got rid of 102.1 ?? WHY!!! they played everything ffrom Club houz to Reggaeton etc! now I hope they get anotha station like them or I am boycottin Clear Channel word up!

I got  a job at a 7-eleven convience store its cool good pay and all hella hard on my feet. I dont know its like when you working earnung money its still not enough for what it is you need to do.. Thats why I need a second job I need to find one until then I am loving the Bach its going tobe 76 82 degrees alol this week and next week with ne day of chance of a rain shower! I am trying to get into shape but for now going listne to my Imeem or radio and clean up my room give me a peace of mind to figure shit out till next tim sorry xanga I will be writing to you more frequently I promise maaaaaaaad love Sawntae Maria~

I AM OVER SHIT!

WOW shit is crazy in life rightn ow but hopefully it will get better I mean I dont know I dont understand how thigns go and why things happen but shit happens for reasons..

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IM BACK!!

Im BAck Xanga I missed you!

Okay so everything is pretty much godo n osme things aren't.. I love my NEW BOO! Julio thats right me and MEric are Finito! What happened was we wanted two different things in life pretty much he still is my boy and all but us togetheri s a NO NO.. I'm still thinking about getting a myspace page but whats the point when i see everyone when I come home anyway? WOW so the new guys I love him I strongly Like him but he is a bit younger than me so that concerns me.. I amtrying to loose weight I did put on a few lbs which is cool Im just going to double up on my running since school is almost over anyway CANT WAIT for my summer break.. I have been prayign to god that evrything works out for the best until now I aint been doing much of nothing.. Ready to chill out hang with my girls and my fella have fun and WORK get some money up and tone up for the freakin summer.. I need to go to the doctor too I been spotting blood and its not period so I dont kow what it could be Well xanga all si good here sleep tight and I will return shortly!